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Trying to keep sane

Because confinement is not easy

(Note : I am writing this in Mac OS text editor, so I am really avoiding the shit out of quotation marks and apostrophes because the ones it forces on me do not play well when posted into nano. I might have a lot of time, but I have zero time to be hunting down crappy punctuation.)

In France we have had a pretty long stretch at being confined, mainly because a bunch of self righteous assholes forget the whole fraternité part and don’t seem to take their social responsibilities too seriously.

Which leads to travel restrictions since February and a curfew that has been in place so long I can’t remember when it actually started.

So far I think I have managed to avoid most of the problematic parts of being at home for five to six days at a time. Granted I have had some serious mood swings, but I put that down to trying to reduce how much I am smoking, because at the hight of the initial set of lockdowns I was hoofing them down out of boredom.

Well, that’s of course what I thought until today. You see I got bored as usual, so went dragging up content from a collection of streaming sites to fill the time.

This was my first mistake, because dear readers, when you’ll watch anything, you’re going to expose yourself to the content you don’t really need in your space at that time.

If you have not watched an LGBT romance film, you will have no idea that they do not always end in a positive note, contrary to the cis het versions where it is all bubbly and happy to the end. Because that is more how life is, it ends badly, like enjoying your social life, and then being locked in your apartment for over a year on and off.

This is the key part here, as you see, it transpires other than having really vivid dreams all the time, one other side effect of all this social disconnection is that my emotions are quite frankly fucked and it does not take too much to really go the wrong direction.

Normally, I would be able to watch a sad film and at the end of it be like, well that was sad and move on. What is happening right now is that the end of the film lingers until you are making a pizza and start crying because one of the characters picked a terrible decision and the credits rolled.

I was not ready for that at all

Totally expected the weight gain from stuffing my face and rolling in and out of bed, but did not see this coming at me like a barreling train on fire AND ME NO LIKEY.

While I can not really change the conditions of our curfew, what other people do, and the fact that 10km from me in any direction doth not include a sea, I can mitigate the effects.

One thing I started pretty early was not to drink during confinement, I did a few video drinks, got a bit drunk, and when you close your laptop it is a touch too depressing being drunk and alone in the dark. So we said good bye to that rather sharpish.

Now I just need to make sure I keep my boredom viewing a bit light and spend a bit more time with Kaja, even though she fucking well cut my face up last night when she decided she was not happy with the position she got herself into while I was sleeping (and I am to blame for obviously).

Really, I think if she was not around I probably would have gone clinically insane. Having another living creature, albeit a small hate filled fluff ball, does cut out the loneliness part. It kind of also helps that she’s a very vocal cat (as in she miaows a lot, not that I hear voices come from her as this would be schizophrenia), so when I talk to her I do get a reaction back, we play, and she will come sliding into bed to watch a film.

Of course, what she is actually doing is profiting off that body heat, for she is a cat after all and that is what they do, but it is beneficial to us both.

I really hope that Macron can get his governments shit together and move on with the vaccination programme, because really that is the only thing that is going to make a difference. I can live without going outside the country, but it would be nice to at least be able to go to the other end of this one (and not write a huge blog post about my decent into losing my mind).

Watch list

If ye be interested, here are some films I did enjoy (VOST = Version originale sous-titrée / Original subtitled version)

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Живой Журнал празднует день рождения!

Домен LiveJournal.com был зарегистрирован 15 апреля 1999 года. В том же году вышел в прокат культовый фильм «Матрица», в городе Сараево родился 6-ти миллиардный житель Земли, а Франция стала самой посещаемой страной. Её посетили 73 млн. туристов!

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Mask4Mask

After spending 18 days under the new "masks everywhere" regulations, countless hours on trains, and insufferable pain in the ears (when of course they're not snapping off like a wardrobe malfunction), I've decided to buy some decent masks.

Considering that they're not going anywhere anytime soon, figure might as well torment myself more than necessary.

I got two sets in total 14 (˜2 per day for 7 days) of at least ones that follow the AFNOR guidance, and at a price that now make them quite literally the best clothes I own.

The first set from Le Slip Français, because Google told me to and I have no will power to battle BigData today.

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The second set from Eminence, since they're recommended on a Made in France website (shop local and all that) plus the style looks alright in comparison to some of the other ones available on the market.

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This is about the most intensive shopping I've done in a long time, my style is quite literally summed up as first thing seen in Primark.  But here we are, 2020 making us do shit we never did before.

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A Billion Stairs Climbed

Since I don't have an automatic way to crosspost from my Logarion Archive, I present to you this copy and paste job from lj.gl/a-billion-stairs-climbed.html

I've spent this weekend down in the south of France knocking around the area just south of Toulouse, visiting a friend in Pamiers.

Yesterday we went out to Foix, which is a considerably larger small town in the area :D

I might consider updating this post with some descriptions, but because I'm lazy, here are some photos (full album here):

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THE SLOW INTERNET

I’ve been rather bad at getting on things, my server Geomyidae was at the end of it’s life span and it was time to get the VM shutdown.

To be fair, I hadn’t done many updates to gopher.is for some time at this point and the content was getting old. The other problem with this is that it’s not on the same machine as I run my main blog or any of the other sites where I have a copy of Logarion installed.

En brief, moving content is time consuming nonsense that makes me less likely to actually do a thing, then I neglect that thing. This is why I’ve made a bigger effort to integrate things, like the BBS with CommunityWare.ca, local and external NNTP servers on Leafnode, etc.

Then I was struck by lightening, I watched a video about the Gemini Protocol, I tried a few servers to get up and running, didn’t really feel them much or just didn’t get them working.

Until that is GeGoBi got on my radar, you see it uses the existing structure and content from Gophernicus, which when you’re on the market for a new gopher server is just the right thing.

So I got this bad boy running and oh boy does it work, I like the feel a bit better of Gophernicus and as I dip my fingers more in to Gemini, I actually quite like it. In fact, I seem to like it so much that I went and found gopher.is a friend at gemini.is.

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